Challenges come in many forms. So does healing. Often it arrives from our own guides.
Some people expect healers to be superhuman. But we all have our challenges – physical, mental, emotional and spiritual.
In this lifetime one of my biggest challenges has been healing the emotional trauma of one of the mantras in my family when I was growing up.
I’d make 99 on yet another test. “What happened to the other point?” Always the same question. Always the same assumption that I could be perfect at all times. I often did make 100. The response then was, “We never expected anything less from you.”
I know my parents did the best they knew how. They wanted the best for me and thought that by pushing me to strive toward perfection, they were doing a good job.
We all have our childhood traumas. It’s just that ”What happened to the other point?” turned out to be the one question that implanted in me a deep fear of failure and an even deeper fear of being judged and found lacking. So these have been the twin terrors I’ve struggled with my whole life.
Then one morning last week as I was waking up, I heard a voice say, “There is no other point!”
What? Of course there is! But if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s always listen to the voices.
Finally: Oh, I get it! There is no other point because if I did my best, the “other” point simply doesn’t matter. Maybe it doesn’t even exist.
Plus there is no other point because the only point is to give your all to the experiences you choose to have.
Nine is an extraordinarily powerful number, in both ancient and modern cultures. Three, six and nine are my “totem” numbers. So really, when I made 99 on a test, it was like doubling the power available to me. Ha!
Now I am down with my Double 9 power. Funny what listening to your guidance and engaging in a little retro self-talk can do.